Saturday, July 05, 2003
Yeah right.
I still hate unlosers.
Everybody's so horrible to me at the moment, I think I must have done something really bad and then like forgotten or something. I can't understand it. And why do people feel the need to lie to me? Or to pretend they don't hate me?
OK, that's it. I've changed my mind. I'm not going to Scam. Instead, I'll spend the whole day in my room and on the computer, amd be a complete and total loser. Screw them all.
I feel like crying...
Anyway, let's be optimistic shall we? At least I can spend the whole day playing guitar... Oh that's right! Stupid fucking Child Development coursework due in Monday! Now I'm sure I'm gonna cry. I don't have enough fucking time, school takes up too much of it, I want my life back. Screw you education!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel so lonely at the moment. Basically because I'm single, and all my friends now hate me. And then...him. I can't believe how deluded I was. I mean really, how stupid was I? How could I possibly think for one minute that somebody could even give a shit about me, let alone love me? And the other him... I don't think he really likes me that much. It's for the best really, it would never have worked.
Why does every guy either hate me or have a girlfriend? It's so very wrong. I feel like punching somebody or something. Things are generally quite screwed up. I suck and I'm going to be alone forever. I can see it now... Stupid floz who doesn't even deserve a capital letter, all alone doing homework or something, wearing mothball clothes and crying to herself about what a loser she is, because everybody else is such an unloser. I really don't like people. They all hate me.
Today a townie spat on me!! That stupid fucker Sean Vivash... And I was wearing sandals, coz I was wearing my stripy tights. How disgusting, I'm gonna get like TB or rabies or something now...
Somebody's overweight and I think it's you.
Oh, and you know what? I don't think I have ever received a compliment once in my whole life. Oh actually, once at Thorpe Park, some townies said they liked my jacket. But they were townies, so I take it to be an insult. Oh and the other week, someone said they liked my hair. But other than that...never. That's it. Two compliments, one of which is a veiled insult. Great. Absolutely fucking fantastic.
Peace (or war) out,
Tuuuuuurtleeeee
xxx
I still hate unlosers.
Everybody's so horrible to me at the moment, I think I must have done something really bad and then like forgotten or something. I can't understand it. And why do people feel the need to lie to me? Or to pretend they don't hate me?
OK, that's it. I've changed my mind. I'm not going to Scam. Instead, I'll spend the whole day in my room and on the computer, amd be a complete and total loser. Screw them all.
I feel like crying...
Anyway, let's be optimistic shall we? At least I can spend the whole day playing guitar... Oh that's right! Stupid fucking Child Development coursework due in Monday! Now I'm sure I'm gonna cry. I don't have enough fucking time, school takes up too much of it, I want my life back. Screw you education!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel so lonely at the moment. Basically because I'm single, and all my friends now hate me. And then...him. I can't believe how deluded I was. I mean really, how stupid was I? How could I possibly think for one minute that somebody could even give a shit about me, let alone love me? And the other him... I don't think he really likes me that much. It's for the best really, it would never have worked.
Why does every guy either hate me or have a girlfriend? It's so very wrong. I feel like punching somebody or something. Things are generally quite screwed up. I suck and I'm going to be alone forever. I can see it now... Stupid floz who doesn't even deserve a capital letter, all alone doing homework or something, wearing mothball clothes and crying to herself about what a loser she is, because everybody else is such an unloser. I really don't like people. They all hate me.
Today a townie spat on me!! That stupid fucker Sean Vivash... And I was wearing sandals, coz I was wearing my stripy tights. How disgusting, I'm gonna get like TB or rabies or something now...
Somebody's overweight and I think it's you.
Oh, and you know what? I don't think I have ever received a compliment once in my whole life. Oh actually, once at Thorpe Park, some townies said they liked my jacket. But they were townies, so I take it to be an insult. Oh and the other week, someone said they liked my hair. But other than that...never. That's it. Two compliments, one of which is a veiled insult. Great. Absolutely fucking fantastic.
Peace (or war) out,
Tuuuuuurtleeeee
xxx
Thursday, June 26, 2003
There's something about that goddamn tree...
I fell asleep in registration today... Interesting experience. Stupid fucking hexagon head woke me up. Delightful...
Well well well, let's update my list of people I don't currently hate:
Oh well, never mind.
There are quite a lot of cool bands really. Including The Dudettes of course. We have quite a few songs now, which is pleasing. I'm really bored man, screw those stupid fucking hypocritical analytical over-political apathetic democratic false chaotic LOSERS. No wait, I'm the loser with no friends, so I guess they're the unlosers.
I hate unlosers.
Is there anything wrong with hating everything and everybody? No. What has anybody else ever done for me, which hasn't been followed by something nasty. Nope, better not to have friends, better to rely upon the kindness of random strangers, who can't later on throw it back in your face. Fun dude.
Kindness always comes from unexpected places. Pleasant, eh? Pleasant pheasant.
KMFDM Sucks...
I fell asleep in registration today... Interesting experience. Stupid fucking hexagon head woke me up. Delightful...
Well well well, let's update my list of people I don't currently hate:
Oh well, never mind.
There are quite a lot of cool bands really. Including The Dudettes of course. We have quite a few songs now, which is pleasing. I'm really bored man, screw those stupid fucking hypocritical analytical over-political apathetic democratic false chaotic LOSERS. No wait, I'm the loser with no friends, so I guess they're the unlosers.
I hate unlosers.
Is there anything wrong with hating everything and everybody? No. What has anybody else ever done for me, which hasn't been followed by something nasty. Nope, better not to have friends, better to rely upon the kindness of random strangers, who can't later on throw it back in your face. Fun dude.
Kindness always comes from unexpected places. Pleasant, eh? Pleasant pheasant.
KMFDM Sucks...
Friday, June 13, 2003
Goooooooooooood Charlotte!!!
Oh yeah, I have totally succumbed to the new punk-pop trend. They are so awesome!
Anyway... Today basically sucked. I feel very miserable lately, I know I know, 'get a life Laura', I am in serious need of a reality check but hey, that's me. God I love Good Charlotte. Anyway... Yeah. Uh... I really do have nothing to say. Let's see, what's happened today? OK, nothing, never mind.
Hmmm, well the other day I hacked up my long red and black stripy socks, so now I have cool trainer liners and immensely awesome armbands. Woooooooo go me!! Man, I really have jumped on the bandwagon. That's it, sink lower and lower... Well whatever, they look amazing.
I also love Veruca Salt, they rule. Seeeeeether!!! Volcano Girls is also great. Yeah man.
SHUT UP.
Oh yeah, I have totally succumbed to the new punk-pop trend. They are so awesome!
Anyway... Today basically sucked. I feel very miserable lately, I know I know, 'get a life Laura', I am in serious need of a reality check but hey, that's me. God I love Good Charlotte. Anyway... Yeah. Uh... I really do have nothing to say. Let's see, what's happened today? OK, nothing, never mind.
Hmmm, well the other day I hacked up my long red and black stripy socks, so now I have cool trainer liners and immensely awesome armbands. Woooooooo go me!! Man, I really have jumped on the bandwagon. That's it, sink lower and lower... Well whatever, they look amazing.
I also love Veruca Salt, they rule. Seeeeeether!!! Volcano Girls is also great. Yeah man.
SHUT UP.
Monday, June 09, 2003
People I don't currently hate:
1) Amy
2) Kaz
3) Zuzu
4) He who has no name (or rather, I'm too shy to mention it...)
5) George Orwell
6) Charles Dodgson
1) Amy
2) Kaz
3) Zuzu
4) He who has no name (or rather, I'm too shy to mention it...)
5) George Orwell
6) Charles Dodgson
Saturday, June 07, 2003
Oh I forgot to say what was so funny! Hehehehe... I just cannot stop laughing at that Jack and the petrol station thing! I also can't stop thinking what a loser I am. Hmmmmm, if only the two were linked, then I could laugh at myself.
Too funny...
By the way, on the Uberman thing, I meant 20 mins every 4 hours, lol. Even Dawkins wasn't superhuman. Did Dawkins polyphase? I think so. Rumour has it that Thomas Edison did too. Wow!
Today I met up with Kaz, but by the time I met him the skin on my heels was basically hanging off, so I had to walk barefoot which was sheer AGONY. Less painful than shoes though. Luckily, we met up with Alex again, who was able to carry me and save me from further pain. Except he was really evil >_< Kaz finally stopped falling for the "I hate you" thing, yay! Thank God for that. Or Buddah. Or whatever...
Speaking of religion, I was asking about something at my church, and... does anybody have any solutions? Basically, I do a lot of meditation and self-hypnosis. I'm very well-trained in both of these and have a lot of clairvoyant experiences and such. I've got really far and can now leave my body at will, but it really disorients me. This wouldn't be a problem but I suffer from labyrinthitis and become very nauseous. However trascendental I get, I still can't separate myself so much that I lose the nausea. Any ideas?
Oh yeah, and after all of my stupid "cosmetic surgery is so bad" blah blah blah lectures, I have totally contradicted myself (again). When I have the money, I'm gonna get plastic surgery. I know there are risks and it's expensive and everything, but I'm so damn fed up of being ugly! It really does get annoying after a while. While I'm in a shallow mood, guess what? I found these immenselty cool long black gloves which I'm gonna buy. They'll be perfect for when the weather's good but not really hot, if you know what I mean. They are so so nice.
You know what? Trampolining is TIRING. I must be so unfit, I'm like practically dead after I've been on it for about ten minutes. Not good. Still, very fun.
>_< Wow... my dad got me "dinner". I swear to god this is donkey meat or something. It is disgusting. Probably imported as well... *shudder* God I hate Germany. And to make me hate Germany and all its sick sick people more, I have German homework. Was ist das Point? Es is sehr doof!! Oh God, I'm turning into one of them. SAVE ME.
Well... I'm gonna go. Maybe I'll actually update my TOD or FOD for once... Or not. I'd better update my site though, I haven't done that in aaaaaaages.
Peace out,
Floz
xxx
By the way, on the Uberman thing, I meant 20 mins every 4 hours, lol. Even Dawkins wasn't superhuman. Did Dawkins polyphase? I think so. Rumour has it that Thomas Edison did too. Wow!
Today I met up with Kaz, but by the time I met him the skin on my heels was basically hanging off, so I had to walk barefoot which was sheer AGONY. Less painful than shoes though. Luckily, we met up with Alex again, who was able to carry me and save me from further pain. Except he was really evil >_< Kaz finally stopped falling for the "I hate you" thing, yay! Thank God for that. Or Buddah. Or whatever...
Speaking of religion, I was asking about something at my church, and... does anybody have any solutions? Basically, I do a lot of meditation and self-hypnosis. I'm very well-trained in both of these and have a lot of clairvoyant experiences and such. I've got really far and can now leave my body at will, but it really disorients me. This wouldn't be a problem but I suffer from labyrinthitis and become very nauseous. However trascendental I get, I still can't separate myself so much that I lose the nausea. Any ideas?
Oh yeah, and after all of my stupid "cosmetic surgery is so bad" blah blah blah lectures, I have totally contradicted myself (again). When I have the money, I'm gonna get plastic surgery. I know there are risks and it's expensive and everything, but I'm so damn fed up of being ugly! It really does get annoying after a while. While I'm in a shallow mood, guess what? I found these immenselty cool long black gloves which I'm gonna buy. They'll be perfect for when the weather's good but not really hot, if you know what I mean. They are so so nice.
You know what? Trampolining is TIRING. I must be so unfit, I'm like practically dead after I've been on it for about ten minutes. Not good. Still, very fun.
>_< Wow... my dad got me "dinner". I swear to god this is donkey meat or something. It is disgusting. Probably imported as well... *shudder* God I hate Germany. And to make me hate Germany and all its sick sick people more, I have German homework. Was ist das Point? Es is sehr doof!! Oh God, I'm turning into one of them. SAVE ME.
Well... I'm gonna go. Maybe I'll actually update my TOD or FOD for once... Or not. I'd better update my site though, I haven't done that in aaaaaaages.
Peace out,
Floz
xxx
Friday, June 06, 2003
Garbage lyrics
If I was beautiful like you,
I would never be at fault,
I would walk between the raindrops,
Bringing traffic to a halt
But that will never be
No that will never be
'Cause I'm not beautiful like you
I'm beautiful like me
If I was beautiful like you,
I would never be at fault,
I would walk between the raindrops,
Bringing traffic to a halt
But that will never be
No that will never be
'Cause I'm not beautiful like you
I'm beautiful like me
P-p-p-polyphasing...
I'm thinking about trying out polyphasic sleeping. I obviously won't use the Uberman method (20 minutes every 6 hours), but I guess my sleep will be somewhat reduced. I think it should work quite well though, as I get every tired at certain points in the day, but not really at night, plus it'll hopefully give me some more time and energy to do the things that need doing. It'll be an interesting experiment, I'll keep notes on my progress.
Fatax
Another thing... apparently the government is going to introduce taxes for fat people and smokers. About goddamn time!!!!!
I am SO fed up of fat people sucking up the NHS resources, they reall owe us. I hate smokers too but fatties are just plain awful. Well... I'm going to leave.
Note to self: remember... print out pictures, buy blu-tack
I'm thinking about trying out polyphasic sleeping. I obviously won't use the Uberman method (20 minutes every 6 hours), but I guess my sleep will be somewhat reduced. I think it should work quite well though, as I get every tired at certain points in the day, but not really at night, plus it'll hopefully give me some more time and energy to do the things that need doing. It'll be an interesting experiment, I'll keep notes on my progress.
Fatax
Another thing... apparently the government is going to introduce taxes for fat people and smokers. About goddamn time!!!!!
I am SO fed up of fat people sucking up the NHS resources, they reall owe us. I hate smokers too but fatties are just plain awful. Well... I'm going to leave.
Note to self: remember... print out pictures, buy blu-tack
First post...
Well to start off my first post, I shall introduce my self. I'm Floz/Laura, 15, I live in the UK and I'm...me.
By me, I mean I'm:
Hyperactive, obsessive, outgoing, compulsive, schizophrenic, happy/sad, loving, over-trusting, opinionated, tactless, weird, boring, annoying, out of control... Well you get the point. My website is Reasons To Hate Me, check it out sometime.
Well to start off my first post, I shall introduce my self. I'm Floz/Laura, 15, I live in the UK and I'm...me.
By me, I mean I'm:
Hyperactive, obsessive, outgoing, compulsive, schizophrenic, happy/sad, loving, over-trusting, opinionated, tactless, weird, boring, annoying, out of control... Well you get the point. My website is Reasons To Hate Me, check it out sometime.
